Contemplating Life // My Life Phases

my old scrap book

I space out,

a lot.

In the class, when it gets boring, I always doodle in my text books. I draw in my margin test page. I draw tattoos on my hands. I fill my table with my drawings. I doodled here and there.

I just can't keep my hands to myself... .

(shout out to the people who read it while singing)

Well, I guess I got this blood running on me from my father. He loves to draw. Come to my house then you will see how full our walls are with paintings. And I'm not complaining tho, I enjoy drawing. I personally think it is the most efficient way to express my imagination. When my brain is getting hectic with a lot of crazy things going on inside there, I convert it into a drawing. And it feels good, satisfying.

But these past two years, I've been really into interior, even fashion design. It's just recently that I thought this is my passion. Whenever I have free time, I tend to feel inspired, then I'll start to draw some or just simply make an outfit set on Polyvore. You can check my account here.

ignore the cringey romanization
this was old (and if you find any inappropriate words,
that's the actual lyrics)

Tbvh, I do a lot of things at the same time but never finish one. For example, I learn guitar, I write, I draw, I dance, and a bunch of other things, but I get bored easily and turned my back into another thing.I hate routinity. I always need new things to do.

I lowkey wanting to be a director. I always interested in the making of a music video. So yeah, I've gone through the 'storyboard drawing' phase also. lol. But I'm not gonna attach the picture here cause some of them are just straight up ridiculous.

Anyway, I wish in the future I can still do the things that I'm passionate about (but with a stable job (in order to live)). But how beautiful life can be when we just do whatever things we want to do. Even after all this time, we are living other people's expectation, aren't we?

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The moment I graduated after the hellish exams

I attend another school, its name is society.

-BTS, Adult Child

(I'm just gonna leave this here)


(enjoy contemplating your life!)
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